Midnight Watch

One twenty in the morning and I still cannot sleep. I have been in prayer for over two hours reviewing before the Lord the possible dimensions of our new building.

Of course what is keeping me awake is trying to calculate square footage, parking spaces, auditorium size, and how many classrooms we may need – all in my head, in the dark, while tossing and turning on my bed!

The pattern of adding it all up, putting it before the Lord in a neat package and asking His blessing for my plan is finally broken when I decide to get out of bed and eat something. These midnight watches make me hungry so after a few crackers and milk I head back to my bedroom and make my final plea for clarity and understanding. That is where I finally see it.

All this mental building construction and scrutiny for a location has missed the point! God doesn't want my plans, He wants my faith! He doesn't need me to show Him where I want to relocate; He wants to know if I am ready to follow Him where He leads me!

I can now go to sleep knowing that God will take care of the plans and the place when we are willing to faithfully follow where He leads us. I fall asleep dreaming of the day we will be ready to leave Verdun.